Psychology defines introversion as:

  1. the act of directing one’s interest inward or to things within the self.
  2. the state of being concerned primarily with one’s own thoughts and feelings rather than with the external environment.

I am an introvert. I spend a great deal of time in my own head. Not all of my thoughts are pleasant to hang out with, but generally I prefer them to the ‘external environment.’ Large groups make me feel very uncomfortable and drained. It can take me days to restore my balance. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy interaction, but on a small scale. One to five is the optimum number.

This can make life tough. I enjoy musicals and theater, but going out for an event is exhausting. I don’t go to bars. I don’t like parties. Work Christmas parties, not if I can avoid them. New Year’s Eve? No, but thank you. My work has a three day retreat every year…it’s torture. We have to share rooms and it’s a three day party…~shudder~.

I have learned to suppress my natural inclination to retreat. I can function in social situations. The question is…why do I have to? Why do I have to raise my voice to be heard? Why do I have to socialize to have my work taken seriously? Why is this a part of my job review?

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