i am afraid.
constantly spinning in the land of
what if. the other side
of inventive problem solving
is problem imagining and i
excel at both. i see the patterns
merging and diverging. it’s like a
kaleidoscope filled with both
the beauty of patterns, and the darker
spaces in between. i tell myself,
focus on the rainbows, the bright
dreams, the hope. I don’t want to
live in fear.